I'm sorry for being upset. The reason why I didn't answer you're concerns (such as, "what wrong" or "are you all right") is because I'm such a fool for writing my feeling to thousands of people who don't give a damn. Whenever I recieve horrible comments, I get easily pissed off. They just LOVE to give you a hard time, don't they?
I don't why I bother discussing my issues to people I never met or know. I'd rather show half of the world my art for recognition rather than talking to anyone. It doesn't mean I want more attention, I just want to talk someone about my problems, too. I'm not the only lonely person in the world.
It has been a horrible week. I mean, not only I lost someone I'm still in love with (even though were good friends), but also people in my family are dying for the last few months.
Now my mothers is crying because we're putting Jack (my little Yorkie) out of his misery, tonight. She felt terrible doing that but it must be done. Whenever she cries, I cry. It's contagious. I put her hand against my cheek to show how much I love her. She couldn't make me happy.
It's hard to find happiness all by yourself. I know I've made the choice of being depressed. I thought I would change for the better this year...I don't know if I'm right or wrong.
Girls, do you ever get sick to death of always being the bride's maid, never the bride?
Here's one of my favorite songs to remind me that I'm not alone. Listen: [link]