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I will never forgive myself for what I've done over the years. You may see me as a pretty face, but I'm sure you all have NO idea how ugly I can be -- on the inside.

I am selfish and cruelly judgmental over people I don't even know. Jealousy is poison, consuming my soul. I would gaze into the mirror, seeing if I'm skinny or fat. Or with this spiky haircut, do I look like I'm really gay? I just want to be unusual to Mr. Right. I guess it's not working.

Anger turns my blood into hot magma. How much I hate myself for being a heartless bitch. I am wicked woman cause I don't even miss my sisters. I feel like I've emotionally abused my parents by calling them horrible names whenever they'd remind me of negative things that upset me. I pray to God that something bad happens to people (who are better than me, yet kind) I'm against...those who I think are a threat to me. There is a monster living inside of me.

I haven't been happy in a LONG time. I made myself miserable. I beg for God to wash away my sins, paint my hollow, black heart with His light, and help open my heart forever...never close.  
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: water


Mackenzie Ferry
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
I am an aspiring and talented artist/cartoonist ever since I was ten, and an aspiring singer-songwriter since two week before my eighteenth birthday. I have graduated Hanford High on June 5th 2009 and went to Columbia Basin College around the late September of 2009, pursuing a Multimedia Degree for Graphic Design.

Strange as it may seem, I have NO desire of achieving that degree. If I do that, I'll end up living my life with regret. My heart is compelled to maintain my talented skills, such as drawing, singing, songwriting, and maybe writing stories or novels. With all my heart, I want NOTHING more than to be an award-winning creative genius for a living. I don't know why I keep on believing...I guess everything I want to be is merely preposterous.

Yet, I want to be the kind of person anyone would look up to artistically, seeing me as the new inspiration of the 21st century. I am blessed to have fans here on Deviantart, who are very supportive of my work.

I am diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome ever since I was four or five. I do get depressed most of the time. I have an anxiety disorders. I have extreme fear of little kids when they cry, throw tantrums, squealing like pigs. I am not planning to have children, even though I want to get married to a man who will love me for who I am.

Gaining weight is one of my main concerns ever since I was very young. I began to exercise when I was thirteen. As years went by, I continued to work out daily nonstop. I do 300 crunches, 50-60 push-ups, do jogging every now and then. I starve myself a little, sometimes half of the day. I look myself in the mirror every day to examine my figure, which worries my mother a lot. I happened to the skinniest child of Mom's six children.

I have no job. I still live my parents while my five siblings are out of the house. I can be immature, sensitive, shy, very quiet, and take everything seriously.

Welcome to my gallery! Please leave me nice comments. I refuse to take offensive comments. Lots of love to you all!

Current Residence: N/A
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Small or Extra Small
Print preference: N/A
Favourite genre of music: Every Genre, but rap
Favourite photographer: none
Favourite style of art: Disney-related
Operating System: don\'t know
MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Shell of choice: What are you talking about?
Wallpaper of choice: Something beautiful and romantic
Skin of choice: I do not know...
Favourite cartoon character: Any cartoon character
Personal Quote: Your life is a story, you're the main character

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ninja2of8 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for checking out my little creations and for the fave of my little cookies. You rock! Hug
M-Jelena97 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the watch! :D
FerryQueen Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You are MOST welcome!
otomepalace Featured By Owner 5 days ago
Thanks for the +watch! Meow :3 
FerryQueen Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You are MOST welcome!Hug 
leif-j Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014
:-) Thank you for the fave. 
FerryQueen Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You are MOST welcome!
Luciana-Lu Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2014
Thank you for the watch! :)
FerryQueen Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You are most welcome!
Shi-Yin Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave! :)
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