I don't know how many times I'm going to say this, but I am sorry for not submitting more of my drawings. Actually, I'm drawing something, but I will submit it around December. I'm also drawing Dr. Seuss characters, mostly Horton Hears a Who. The Who's are a little tricky to draw.
School started two days ago, and I'm taking Piano Lab for beginners. Piano Lab is a class where students are learning how to properly play a piano. I have some classmates that never played a piano before but played other instruments, or they know how to play but quit years ago, and I, I know how to play a piano, I can read the musical notes, but I am a slow reader on music sheets. Whenever I make a mistake, such putting my finger on the wrong key, I shake my head with frustration. I beat myself up when I make the smallest mistake.
I have been a little down because with all my heart, I really want to be an artist/animator and a singer-songwriter, but having a mother or a father who never approves your dreams and ideas (mostly being a singer-songwriter) spirals your hopes downward. It's hard to make your parents change their minds of doubting you. I have nothing to record myself on tape singing and displaying it on YouTube. I doubt that my hometown has nightclubs where lounge singers perform. I'm trying to write a good lyric, but having the most difficult time rhyming. I fear it will sound like crap, sounding similar to other songs, and I ask myself when will I ever finish it? I FREAK out every single day about this! I even lose confidence in myself. I'm discouraged and scared because even younger people are improving their skills.
I love my parents, yet I am too weak to rebel. I've tried so many times, but it's futile. I've looked for part-time jobs, but no one's hiring. I went online to look for other part-time jobs but they are all full-time and these kind of jobs have to do with science and engineering, which is what I'm incapable at. I keep planning on making holiday cards, but I'm stuck!